April 15 2012

Hey buddy, just posted a writing but wanted to say i live you as well!

Hey buddy. Well, it seems that the last couple of posts that i wrote did'nt upload. So i don't see them here. We've been having our visits as regular as circumstance has permitted since the last entry of the vacation post. Some recent things are that your mother apparently is getting divorced from her husband and you guys have moved in with your Grandfather. There was an incident that i waned to write here about because it is important to me. I would like for you to see both sides to the incident. Evidently month or so back, you and your mother got into a disagreement around the time she and her husband seperated. Evidently your mother sayed "why dont you go live with your dad". And you told her that you wanted to. She also stated "I don't know why you would want to go live with him when he does'nt even answer your calls." Evidently son, you also called me at this time while upset and crying and i happened to miss this call and the message you sent until long after this i discovered your message and have it today. Well son, i want to address this incident for you. First, Jason i have called you many many times on your mother's phone and not recieved a call back. There are times that i understand that your mother has not even told you that i have called. This would explain why i never receive a call back from you and perhaps why you never are told that i have actually called you as well. Second, the consequent visit that we had, i met you and your mother at the bookstore parking lot to pick you up. I was at this time unaware of this incident. After arriving, your mother asked to talk to me and sent you to the car. She stated that she was having problems in her marriage and that her and her husband were divorcing. She said that you did not like it and was upset with her. She then said she almost sent you to stay with me that's how bad it was. This is all that i can recall your mother telling me about this incident Jason. So at this time i did not fully understand everything that actually had taken place. So after getting in the car and pulling away you told me what your mother said to you and how that you were crying. I didnt understand everything at that time until afterwards it all came together in my mind and i realized what had taken place Jason. I did not know at that time that: you had been crying, that you had called me because your mother was attacking you and belittling your and my relationship with one another,that she was threatening you to come live with me, that you called me and was reaching out to me for help at that time, that your mother had said those things to you. Jason im sorry i was not there for you when you needed me to be. This is why i did not ever want your mother to be allowed to take you with her as she moved so very far away. It makes it very difficult for me to be there for you like it ought to be. Jason im sorry buddy. This does not mean that i did not want to help you or be there for you okay? Nor does it mean that i am not here for you today. Please if this ever happens again, you call me or get ahold of me any way you can buddy and i will handle that.I will not allow you to be treated like that if i can do anything about it. So since then i think you may have been put under the assumption that your mother was right about what she said, and that what she says is true. I want to say that no, it is not true Jason. Love you buddy. Praying for you. Your dad